Before I started this blog I thought about starting it quite a lot. I did a bunch of research; subscribing to helpful sites that provide step-by-step instructions on the technical aspects of blogging, and obsessively following every blogger I came across. I read about social media as it pertains to blogs, platforms, domains…I even looked into blogging anonymously versus as myself (clearly I chose the latter. ‘sup, I’m Liz.).
Are you terribly impressed with my preparation and thoughtfulness? Blown away by my foresight and Googling skills? Don’t be. I was just stalling- scared to pull the trigger, and the reason is totally embarrassing. This nagging thought kept plaguing me. Am I too old?
Before you fall all over yourself telling me how youthful I am (I mean, you can fall a little), I’m not actually having an existential crisis over my 30s. It’s just that this digital world is intimidating— have you SEEN Instagram? Everyone is young and thin. Or everyone is an acai bowl. There is very little on there that does not represent some version of young, thin, or acai bowl. And Snapchat? Notice there is nothing linked in that last sentence. Don’t have it, don’t get it, kinda fear it. Facebook. Good old Facebook- you are my comfort zone. I’ve used FB (I call it FB, that’s how tight we are) for, what, 8 years? 9? But a lot of the bloggers out there are “so over” FB, and here I thought I was so hip to the times.
I actually did some research on “my generation,” because if I’m going to have a crisis about my age (I know I said I wasn’t having a crisis, but looking back I suppose it was a little bit crisis-y.), I want to be sure I’m using the correct terminology. Well, lo and behold, NO WONDER I’m in crisis! (We’re just going to embrace the crisis now, stay with me.) I was born in 1980, which is actually on the cusp of Generation X and Generation Y; aka “The Millennial Generation.” So when I feel conflicted about whether I relate to a 25 year old versus a 45 year old…it’s because I can relate to both. Says the internet.
And you know what? I feel a lot better. Not just because Google validated my feelings (let’s be honest, Google will validate anything you want- Google is a little slutty like that), but because when I took a step back and looked at the people I was most motivated and inspired by in this online world I so desperately wanted to join, I saw that they all had a similar message, and one that I wholeheartedly share. Essentially, it is this: You are just right, just the way you are.
I mean, eat an acai bowl here and there, but of all the things in your life you wish to change, don’t waste TIME worrying about TIME!
I’m reading Big Magic right now, by Elizabeth Gilbert, and I walk away from every chapter so GRATEFUL for her ability to take her experience and massive wealth of knowledge and put it into such beautiful words. She’s 47- definitely Gen X. In 2006, when she wrote Eat, Pray, Love, she may have had a smidge less life under her belt, but her voice is the same, and I’m as entranced by that dog-eared book today as I was 11 years ago. Alternately, the blogs I follow most, and read daily, are by Millennials in their mid or late 20’s- and I am excited every day to read about their lives and plans- and I love to see their pictures of pretty girls doing yoga and eating acai bowls because why else am I online if not to see beautiful pictures and to be inspired to recognize the beauty in my life too?
At the end of the day, I’m not too old for this. I’m just right for this! Because I’m me, and I’m living this crazy life along with you, and as long as we can laugh at ourselves and cheer each other on along the way, we’re doing just fine.
You are just right, just the way you are.
And for the record, I have never eaten an acai bowl.